School

I find myself torn today. I was hit with some news which I think is great, but it is a bit pricey. The college in my town is opening its campus to kids from grades 2-6 to go to college for a week and see what it is like. They will actually be learning as well. My 9 year old told me she would really like to go. I want to send her but who knows. God is our provider and with His help I know that we will be able to let her go. It amazes me that see just gets out of school for the summer and she wants to go to school during the summer instead of playing outside all the time. WOW!! I have the most wonderful, terrific children in the world.

The end is near

Tomorrow is the last day of school for the kids. They can't wait. My son is happy because he is not a morning person and my daughter is happy because she will get to go and spend the night at people's houses. In about 2 weeks and a few days we go on vacation. We can't wait. We began looking forward to this time of the year around Christmas. Trying to decide where we are going to go and that sort of thing. I usually leave that task up to my husband. He is very good at that sort of thing. I just realized while sitting here it has gotten as dark as 8 or 9 o'clock at night outside. Yeah! more storms. Don't get me wrong we really need to rain around here but does it have to come in gully washers instead of a nice steady spring shower. Oh well, who am I to question what God has in store for us. I think I have rambled on enough for the day. Have a great day.

Things and Stuff

I really didn't know what to title this blog. I have been struggling with this blog since Wednesday ( May 16). On Wednesday night we went to church and the teaching was wonderful. On Wednesdays the preacher doesn't preach really but more along the lines of teaching. Which is good. I love to be taught. In Romans chapter 12 it talks about the measure of faith. My pastor said that every man is given a measure. Picture if you will a circle and you are in the middle of that circle. That is your measure of faith. What is in that circle is what you can directly affect. If you are a parent it is you kids and spouse. If you are a teacher then it is your classroom of children. Things like that. The prayer of Jabez asks that God expand our boarders. How can God expand our boarders when we don't even take care of what is in our little circle? If God was to bless us with more, how do we know that it won't kill us or drive us away from Him. If you are praying for a home of your own ( and I am talking to myself) then look at the house your are in now. Are you caring for it the way you should? God wants to bless you but He won't give us more than we can carry either. Sounds like a contradiction doesn't it. But really it is not when you actually stop and think about it. The gist of this. Take care of what God has given you first before you ask for more. Be content with what you have and with where you are. If no one else gets this but me at least I am on the record as to knowing what it is that I need to be working on. Have a great and Blessed Day.

Pleasures

Pleasure in the dictionary means: desire, inclination 2. a state of gratification: enjoyment. 3. a source of delight or joy.

There are many things that bring about this pleasure. Serving God gives me pleasure. To know that there are just simple little things that I can do for Him when He has done so much for me. But I find myself finding pleasure in other things as well and wondering to myself if I should. For instance, I LOVE to get my nails done. Not only does it feel really good to be "pampered" some but my hands always seem to look really pretty to me. Is that wrong? I think that is the only thing that really and truly brings me pleasure that really seems worldly. I seriously think that I could cut out tv watching and that not bother me. I guess the question that is bothering me is "Is it wrong to find pleasure is something as simple as getting a manicure?"

Promotions

Everyone that works knows what it is like to be offered a better position in the company. Well, that offer came to me yesterday. I was called to the office and was asked if I would like the job of working in the office. This job consists of all nights 12:30-9:30, but it will get me out of the department that I am currently working in permanently. I really don't like the department I am working in right now. Let me take you back a little bit. When I was first hired on for this company the manager and I sat down and discussed some issues. Mostly the fact that I wouldn't work on Sundays and not on Wednesdays past 5. He said that would be no problem we can do that and so he wrote it on my hiring contract that I wouldn't work on Sundays and not on Wednesdays past 5 signed by both him and myself. And he told me that if anyone scheduled me on those days at times to come to him and he would fix it. I said great. Well , when he offered me this new position I assumed the same still applied. So when he told me about the night thing something was niggling at my brain. So I asked him about it. You should probably also know that now we go to church on Saturday night not Sunday morning. So I asked him about Saturday nights and Wednesday nights. He said "I can't guaranty you those evenings off". Wow, what has changed. I don't think my hiring contract has. I just looked at him shocked and he said why don't you go and think about it and let me know yes or no before 5 this evening. I said ok. So, I went back to my work and instead of thinking about it I was praying. When I went on my last break for the day I called my husband and told him what was going on. He wasn't happy. Talking about how the company wanted on pagans working for them and told me to ask the boss if I also needed to sacrifice a goat for him. That sort of thing. My husband gets very intense sometimes. But that just makes me love him all the more because I know he cares. So, anyway, I got off the phone with him and went to the office to talk to the boss. I prayed the whole way to the office. Did I mention the job came with a raise too. When I got there he told me to have a seat and I said that I would rather stay standing. I began to tell him that I appreciated the offer, but I couldn't turn my back on my God, my church and church family, or my home family for that matter. Those things make up who I am and the reason I am a hard worker. That is just me! I can't see myself not going to church that is something that has become a part of me. He said that he respects my decision and that if I was ever willing to make that "sacrifice" to let him know.

I thought that I would be upset about this but I find myself at peace about it. I think that is what made the devil soooo mad. Yesterday when I got home he decided to try and use my children. I am so sorry to hear that. Because I will FIGHT tooth and nail for my kids. The devil can't have them. I won't allow it. I had to discipline my son yesterday. Twice. Anyone who knows me knows that that is not what I do. Moms are supposed to be soft and gentle. They have tender hearts just like a child. Those hearts can be broken very easily. Well, my heart was broken and it felt like it was never going to mend. It is still sore in spots but better. I don't think I have ever cried as much as I cried yesterday. My world seems to be in an uproar but I am still not stressed about it. I know that God has a plan and I am trusting Him to see me through. I would like to leave you with a couple of verses that were shown to me.
Psalm 37:4,5
4. Delight thyself also in the Lord; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.
5. Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.